Where Rest Is

Feet planted concrete in this space, surveying beauty before her. This is her safe place. On the boulder between two mossy mounds. Infant mountains, children to those on the horizon that capture every God scripted sunrise and sunset. Sharp jagged perfection casting flawless shaddows, steadfast in their own knowing and purpose.

Rooted here she stands. Returning to this imagined scene when sleep itself is a longed for dream. When counting to one hundred a hundred times and then again leaves her eyes wide open. Here, where the reverent wind sways the lush long grass. Tall, soft, encompassing in this formulated valley in her mind. No artificial noise, only nature sings here. Whispering comfort from the gale. Never seen, the only evidence of its presence is the movement stirred up all around (and within), rushing over the violet mountains landing gracefully on her skin. A hint of horripilation trickling through her.

Still she stands while, from her chest, butterflies swarm. Too many to ever have hope of quantifying. Unpredictable moments, gushing from her spirit out into this valley. Random but welcome snippets in time. When least expected, these gifts from above, then within, proliferate. 

Butterflies, their own history just as transforming. From birth on old red dirt, to retreating inward, dissolving, then emerging. Majestic and light, they take flight. Delight in their predestined, butterflies do not question why their journey is so weird. Rather, they take this blessing and flutter to their heart's content. Internal compass leading the way. 

Here on this boulder filled with intermittent half present heartbeats, a calm emerges and slumber steps up to the stage. Flat bubbling clouds slowly fade into the darkness, wind winds down then mirrors the whirl of the fan overhead. That falling feeling finds her.

Falling deep into the just-firm-enough mattress, pillows strategically tucked here and there, one final tense then release, back arching every so slightly as she curls up on her side secured. Resting resolute.